This is my favorite of the new carvings, this picture is of the original carving. I have since molded it and have made some pendants from it, and they are really exciting! I will show those soon. There were a few sources of inspiration for this, which I will talk about in the next few days. But I have always been very attracted to insects, beetles in particular. I think the beetle is my familiar creature, and I used to dream about them vividly. I used to make insect related art, in college, but it has been a long time since I made a scarab. The time seemed right to do one again now.
I love the ancient Egyptian mythology of the scarab beetle, pushing the sun up into the sky each day. It is a great symbol of the cycle of days, and life. The struggle of a single creature, making its way through the world, its burdens weighing it down, but yet persisting each day. There are days I feel this struggle too. I have many days this year.
I am never sure how public to be with my private life. I tend to err on the side of caution, keeping most of my blogs and public life positive and not revealing too much about my private life, even when I am undergoing major changes. Maybe that is overly cautious, maybe it would help me to share more. But it is how I have always been. So I am sure I sound pretty cryptic sometimes. But one change in my life has been so major, it has effected my work significantly, and since this blog is primarily about my work, I want to share.
I very recently finalized my divorce. Chuck and I had been together many years, since we were teenagers, and we had grown apart. It was a difficult decision to make, but we made it together, and we separated over the summer, right before the Bead & Button show. He moved out to Portland in the late summer, and we started the procedure for divorce. It was complete just over a week ago...the day before Pi Day, in fact. I thought that was appropriate, finishing one chapter of our lives and then the next day celebrating the infinite. We both wish the best for each other, and hope we will find happiness in our separate paths.
So that has been what I have been dealing with in the past year. Work has been hard, but it also helps me get through. Finding the time and energy to be creative has been challenging. I am just starting to make new beads and new work, and it seems that the things I am making are reflecting my new life and how I feel. They are symbolic things, and I guess that makes sense, as art is the expression of our lives. This is my life, and I thank you all for reading, and supporting me, and sharing it with me.