September 25, 2007

Bling (Confession of a BeadQueen)

Beautiful lampworked bird bead by Kim Fields of NorthFire Designs

Yesterday was a good work day. I accomplished the things I needed to get done: glazing/loading/firing a small kiln. It is cooling now so that means today is shipping day. Later I will do a big bisque, so I have to finish some beads (sanding, yuck, my least favorite part!) . I am a bit excited about this bisque (I don't say that often!) because I am firing my first round of the new tiles. And I ordered new glazes for the little jewel bubbles on the tiles, so I hope to get them by the weekend so I can do some tests. I am looking forward to finally seeing some finished results.

silver bead by Anne Choi that says "be not forgetful to entertain strangers"

I also spent a little time stringing, although just a little, as the kiln took up most my day. And the time I did spend was sort of spinning my wheels. I have a confession to make. I am a bit intimidated by the bird bead and the silver bead above. I have two pieces in the works with them as the centerpieces. I have thought about them and have even made my own beads specifically to match them. But now I am having a hard time designing around them. I think it may be the *bling* factor. I am having a hard time getting over the fact that they were costly beads (in the over$50 range). Totally worth every penny, and more, but I am sort of pressured by that to make them into something great. I know I shouldn't think this way, yet here I am. I have no problem designing jewelry with my own beads, even though my beads are less involved and thus less expensive, but I can pack a hundred dollars of my beads into a piece and not be phased. I guess it's because I didn't shell out the bucks for my own work.

So it makes me think of all the beaders I meet at shows, who have purchased my beads in previous years. They say things like, "I got some beads from you last year and I am just hoarding them" or "i just take them out and fondle them sometimes". I think that maybe they are intimidated too! If it is not for *bling* reasons, then maybe it is for lack of confidence reasons, or a combination. I am feeling both right now. What if I can't do justice to this beautiful bead?

So I want to snap out of this mindset. Because, these items are just beads. Incredibly beautiful beads made with creativity, skill, and love, but beads nonetheless. And beads are meant to be strung, and worn. Not hoarded away and brought out occasionally to look at and touch. Beads are meant to be strung...they want to be with other beads! They want to be worn...their duty is to adorn! So I am going to finish these two pieces today, and be confident that I am doing them justice, and wear them proudly.

And you know, in the end, the greatest thing about beading for me is that it is only thread and wire and ribbon. And it can always be taken apart and you can start over. The beauty of beading is that state of flux and process. You can complete your masterpiece and then just as easily start again, with a simple snip f the scissors or wire nippers.

Today's song and video is "Bling (Confession of a King)" by the Killers. I feel like I have been slipping way into the past with my music lately, so it was time to listen to something current. I am not exactly sure what this song refers to, but I think it is about fear and breaking through to take risks, and putting life into perspective. I am posting the lyrics below the video, so I can think about it more. But there are some lines that I absolutely love, that pop into my head on occasion..I have put them in bold type. And the video was a great find...a fan video set to scenes from Harry Potter, focused on Ron Weasley. How fun!




When I offer you survival,
You say it's hard enough to live,
It's not so bad, it's not so bad
How do you know that you're right?

I awoke on the roadside,
In the land of the free ride,
And I can't pull it any longer,
The sun is beating down my neck

So I ran with the devil
Left a trail of excuses,
Like a stone on the water,
The elements decide my fate,
Watch it go..."bling".

When I offer you survival,
You say it's hard enough to live,
Don't tell me that it's over,
Stand up,
Poor and tired,
But more than this

How do you know that you're right?
If you're not nervous anymore,
It's not so bad, it's not so bad


I feel my vision slipping in and out of focus,
But I'm pushing on for that horizon,
I'm pushing on,
Now I've got the blowing wind against my face

So you sling rocks at the rip tide,
Am I wrong or am I right?
I hit the bottom with a "huh!"
Quite strange,
I get my glory in the desert rain,
Watch it go..."bling".

When I offer you survival,
You say it's hard enough to live,
And I'll tell you when it's over,
Shut up,
Poor and tired,
But more than this

How do you know that you're right?
If you're not nervous anymore,
It's not so bad, it's not so bad...

Higher and higher,
We're gonna take it,
Down to the wire,
We're gonna make it,
Out of the fire,
Higher and higher.

It ain't hard to hold,
When it shines like gold,
You'll remember me.

7 comments:

  1. I have the same problem with some of the beads in my stash. I have one Kim Miles bead (I will not tell you how much I paid for it, because I'm sure you would faint dead away) - it's one of the two most expensive beads I have ever bought (the other one was by Kristina Logan) - and I can't touch it!!! Even knowing that I could re-do if I don't like it. It just sits there... Sigh. Having said that, I can't wait to see what you come up with!

    By the way, are you reading the Robert Sabuda _Wizard of Oz_ book or is it on your wish list? I love Robert Sabuda's books - they're really gorgeous pieces of art. I think the _Wizard of Oz_ is the best of the lot so far, although I can't wait to see what will be published next.

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  2. What a great sentiment. I've been reluctant to play with PMC for that same reason. You're completely right - it does no good just sitting there unused next to my unused silver wire.

    I can't wait to see what you create!

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  3. Thanks ladies! I shall do my best. The day has gotten away from me, though, sadly, so I will have to dream about tomorrow instead...

    Melissa, No its just on my reading list. I watched most of the movie though. :P That's about all I could do so far. I mostly just wanted the pretty picture on my blog, to remind me that I want to work on my Dorothy tile soon. Notice the yellow brick too?

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  4. OOOOHH, GO BUY THAT BOOK!!! I believe Amazon has it for 30% off. (Or at least flip through it at Borders.) It is the MOST AMAZING piece of paper art you will ever see. Truly. All of his works are terrific. Two thumbs up.

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  5. loved this thinking and how you worded it. jean!

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  6. Thank you Jean!

    Melissa, the one on my list there says it is a pop up. Is that what you have seen? I love pop up books! I have been really wanting to take a long day out to the book store lately...

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  7. It is the pop up of pop up books! I'd do a blog entry on Robert Sabuda myself, but it's hard to show his wonderful work in 2-d. He also does those fabulous (and fabulously expensive) pop-up Christmas cards that MOMA produces. You can see some photos on his website www.robertsabuda.coms - again, it's hard to do the medium justice in the photos, but it'll give you some idea of how extraordinary his work is.

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